How I became an Ahmadi
by Dr Basharat Ahmad
I had been interested in religion from childhood. Since the earliest,
I always had an overwhelming desire to benefit from the company
of religious scholars (ulama). If a maulvi or preacher
happened to be giving a lecture in our locality, I could not restrain
myself from attending it. My forefathers were Hanafis but while
I had an interest in religion I was also greatly attracted towards
investigating religious questions and concepts.
Joining the Ahl-i-Hadith
Some of my acquaintances belonged to the Ahl-i-Hadith.1
As a result of my investigations I joined the Ahl-i-Hadith. I could
not understand that since there existed Hadith reports of the Holy
Prophet Muhammad, how one could give preference to the verdict of
any jurist. This was the time when the Ahl-i-Hadith were called
‘Wahhabi’2
and were assaulted in mosques and evicted from them. Our family
was at that time residing in the city of Sialkot and we stayed in
the Sadar Market. I was, however, studying in town at the Scotch
Mission High School. On becoming an Ahl-i-Hadith follower, I immediately
started clasping my hands on my chest in prayer and saying ‘Ameen’
audibly when praying in congregation at the Sadar main Mosque.3 The imam of the mosque, the late Maulvi
Mubarik Ali, did not object or say anything as he was a learned
man, but others in the congregation got agitated, there was much
noise and uproar and dire threats were uttered against me. Finally
the matter was reported to the elder of my family, my grandfather.
He was quite annoyed with me. I did not argue with him, but started
attending the Friday congregational prayers at the Ahl-i-Hadith
Mosque of the town. The late Maulvi Abdul Karim used to lead the
prayers, and I had complete freedom to raise my hands and say ‘Ameen’
in an audible manner.
Argument with Rev. Youngson
I have said that I used to study in the Scotch Mission High School.
In my class were also the late Maulvi Qa’im-ud-din and the late
Dr. Sir Muhammad Iqbal, the same Dr. Iqbal who is the famous poet
and philosopher. Reverend Youngson was our Principal and was a very
intelligent Christian priest. Maulvi Qa’im-ud-din and Dr. Iqbal
would debate and argue with Rev. Youngson during the Gospel study
hour, but in the discussions on the issue of the Messiah being still
alive and being superior to the Prophet Muhammad they could not
stand up to the reverend. On one occasion there was a terrible calamity
when the reverend Youngson quoted the Quranic verse Ya ‘isa,
inni mutawaffi-ka wa rafi‘u-ka ilayya4
as an argument in favour of the superiority of Jesus Christ. Dr.
Iqbal, being ruffled, responded that this verse was not from the
Quran. This was a clear victory for the reverend: the verse was
from the Quran. We Muslims felt very discomfited. I fretted
within myself and sometimes, may God forgive me, I even felt annoyed
with God, that by bodily raising Jesus to the heavens He had made
the Muslims to be humiliated by the Christians. At last, the daily
criticisms of Islam by the Christian clergymen resulted in my having
doubts about the veracity of Islam and many a time I thought that
I should leave Islam. The Arya Samaj was a new, popular movement.
Hindu boys used to boast about its merits. I frequently thought,
why not become an Arya. But the love of Islam which had been with
me since childhood did not allow this. The scholars of Islam, whom
we relied on and had great respect for, however, provided no satisfactory
explanations.
Perusal of the book Fath Islam
In 1891, during the period when I was restless in my mind, one
day I was lying on a bed in our courtyard when my paternal grandfather
handed me a book and said:
“Look at the wonder of the fourteenth century5
— a man, Mirza Ghulam Ahmad of Qadian, has claimed to be a likeness
of the Messiah, and has published this book.”
I took the book, which was Fath Islam (Victory of Islam)
and started reading it. Immediately the style of writing captivated
me. As I continued reading, I felt as if the words of the book were
directly entering into my heart and soul, and when I read the arguments
and proofs showing that Jesus had died a natural death, I jumped
with joy. I read the whole book in one sitting and flatly told my
grandfather that this man was truthful. On this he said:
“No, you are yet a child. You have not seen our religious
scholars. I hear they are preparing a universal proclamation of
kufr (heresy) against this man.”
But the truth of the book had cast its influence upon me. I was
not willing to give up belief in the natural death of Jesus. I had
received this gem after so much wanting. The same verse, Ya ‘isa,
inni mutawaffi-ka wa rafi‘u-ka ilayya,6
which had always troubled me was now beautifully satisfying my heart.
The situation now in the central market of Sialkot was that in each
and every meeting and function where people gathered Hazrat Mirza
Ghulam Ahmad was under discussion, but he was invariably opposed.
A dream
I had a dream, around this period, which in its nature was quite
strange. I saw a very tall minaret, in the top of which the Holy
Prophet Muhammad was present. I was eagerly climbing the stairs
of the minaret to meet the Holy Prophet. On my lips was the following
verse of poetry:
Some say ‘glory to me’, some say ‘I am the truth’,
Sing your singing, this is a point for reflection.
While reading this verse and climbing the stairs I woke up. At
that time I did not understand the meaning of this dream. But now
I know that being asked to reflect on ‘glory to me’ and ‘I am the
truth’ referred to the concept of burooz (someone coming
as the manifestation of the Holy Prophet), and the presence of the
Holy Prophet indicated the coming of his burooz. The significance
of climbing the minaret was exactly that mentioned in the revelation
of Hazrat Mirza sahib that the “feet of the Muhammadans would be
established firmly on a lofty minaret”.
Hazrat Mirza sahib in Sialkot
After some days the town was abuzz with the news that Mirza Ghulam
Ahmad, the claimant of Messiahship was coming to Sialkot. Recently,
we had listened to the lectures of Maulvi Nur-ud-din of Bhera, Hafiz
Abdul Mannan of Wazirabad and Maulana Nazir Husain of Delhi who
had also visited Sialkot. On the arrival of Hazrat Mirza sahib too,
we went to town. He was staying at the house of the late Hakim Hissam-ud-din.
The street to the house was full of people. As I and a friend squeezed
our way through the crowd, I saw Hazrat Mirza sahib leave one house
and enter the next. In that brief time, when I glanced at his face
I saw such a glimpse of saintliness and light that I could not help
feeling that this could not be the face of an imposter; it was the
radiant countenance of a truthful man.
Hazrat Mirza sahib lead the asr prayers in Hakim Hissam-ud-din’s
mosque, and I along with others prayed behind him. After the prayers
he sat in the doorway of the mosque. A large number of people were
present in the mosque and they asked him various questions on religious
matters. His answers were so satisfying that one’s faith was renewed.
Sitting near me was Maulvi Abdul Karim, the imam of the Ahl-i-Hadith
mosque who had pledged allegiance to Hazrat Mirza sahib. He said
to me: Look, do you see the light upon Hazrat Mirza sahib’s face?
I confirmed that I did.
In the evening we returned home, but my mind had been deeply impressed.
When we returned the next day, Hazrat Mirza sahib was giving a commentary
on the Sura Fatiha. Today of course every Ahmadi child knows
this particular explanation, but at that time we were hearing it
for the first time. These truths and fine points of knowledge opened
our eyes and the lectures of other ulama which I had heard
now seemed shallow. Dr. Iqbal was at that time sitting on the roof
of the entrance of the mosque and was full of praise for this exposition
of the Quran. Hazrat Mirza sahib stayed a few days in Sialkot and
then went back. Many people in Sialkot took the pledge, among them
Maulvi Mubarik Ali, the imam of our Sadar Mosque. This caused a
great deal of trouble in the Sadar area.
Speeches of Maulvi Muhammad Husain Batalvi
In the meanwhile, Maulvi Muhammad Husain Batalvi arrived in Sialkot.
He was a leading scholar of the Ahl-i-Hadith in the Punjab and was
at the height of his fame for his knowledge and learning. His mission
was to oppose Hazrat Mirza sahib. As I was an Ahl-i-Hadith follower,
I had a special regard for him. I met him at a dinner in Sadar,
and after this there was a lecture by him at the main mosque in
Sadar which was disjointed and not at all enjoyable. However, he
read out some extracts from a copy of [Hazrat Mirza sahib’s book]
Izala Auham, and by taking the passages out of context and
juxtaposing various passages together he gave a completely wrong
impression to the audience. For instance, he emphasized to us that
Mirza sahib had said that there is a verse in the Quran: “Surely
We have revealed it near Qadian”. He also said that Mirza sahib
applied to himself the prophecy mentioned in the verse of the Quran:
“I (Jesus) give good news of a messenger after me whose name is
Ahmad”, and did not apply it to the Holy Prophet Muhammad; that
Mirza sahib says that the Quran is full of abusive words and that
four hundred prophets lied, etc. etc. In short, this is the way
he incited us against Hazrat Mirza sahib. Little did we know that
such a reputed scholar was standing in a mosque uttering lies, and
by misquoting passages was slandering Hazrat Mirza sahib. We were
led astray by trusting the mullahs, and thus lost the distinction
of being among the first followers of Hazrat Mirza sahib.
Thus after polluting the atmosphere of Sialkot, Maulvi Muhammad
Husain Batalvi left. With him also went the spiritual peace I had
found. The community of the Ahl-i-Hadith in Sialkot had become fragmented
and the mosque of the Wahhabis almost desolate. A large portion
of the Ahl-i-Hadith had become Ahmadi and had shifted to Hakim Hissam-ud-din’s
Mosque. The few who were left shifted to an old royal mosque. Maulvi
Muhammad Ibrahim of Sialkot, at that time a young man, was made
imam of the mosque. I also went to say my prayers in that mosque.
But his old-style, traditional khutbas could not attract
someone who had heard the khutbas of Maulvi Abdul Karim.
One Friday was more than enough to disenchant me, and I stopped
going there.
I meet a Sufi
Around this time God so ordained that I chanced to meet a Sufi
of the Chishtiyya Sabiriyya order. Despite being of the Ahl-i-Hadith
school of thought, I had always been interested in sufism, and in
his company that interest was rekindled. I learnt from him all the
recitals and incantations practised in the Chishtiyya Sabiriyya
order. He once inquired as to my purpose in following these practices.
I replied that I wished to become a saint. He said that I was the
first person who had ever desired to learn this from him. Generally
people used incantations for the purpose of attaining some worldly
advantage. To cut a long story short, the constant recitation of
the word “Allah” resulted in my heart frequently feeling moved and
a state of ecstasy was regularly experienced and the thought of
the name Allah remained in my mind constantly. One day I met an
atheist who raised such objections that I lost my very faith. He
said that my entire experience was just a product of my imagination.
I went to my Sufi guide with those objections. He replied that a
Sufi keeps away from debate or discussion. I said that in this world
one cannot avoid encountering people who hold opposing opinions.
What answer, then, would one give to such objections? He just replied
that I should continue reciting the incantations. My faith had,
however, been shaken, so how could I do the recitations? I tried
but my heart was no longer in it. In those days mesmerism was the
latest thing much talked about. My reading of books on this subject
resulted in the loss of whatever little faith I still had. I was
deeply agitated and the world seemed to be hell for me.
I read the book Barahin Ahmadiyya
In the army garrison area of Sialkot, Maulvi Jalal-ud-din used
to teach in the army school. He was a very righteous man and had
become an Ahmadi. One day when I went to visit him he was inside
having a wash. Outside on the bed the famous book by Hazrat Mirza
sahib, Barahin Ahmadiyya, was lying open. As I sat on the
bed my glance fell on the open page and I began reading it. What
a writing it was! It was like a soothing balm for my wounded soul.
The arguments for proving that the Quran had been revealed by God
were so powerful and convincing that as I read on and on I felt
as if a veil was being lifted from my eyes and my faith was being
revived. In short, that day I once again felt that I was a Muslim.
I was convinced that, whether I understood the personal claims of
Hazrat Mirza sahib or not, if certainty in the truth of Islam is
to be obtained the only way is through reading his books. This conviction
grew further when in Lahore I heard the famous lecture of Hazrat
Mirza sahib at the occasion of the Conference of Religions, which
was later published as a book entitled The Teachings of Islam.
Maulvi Abdul Karim’s delivery of the lecture had a magnificent glory
of its own. The substance of the lecture was so lofty and full of
the highest truths and deepest knowledge that the public were listening
in a daze of wonder. The Muslims were so overjoyed that they were
jumping up from their seats. As regards myself, I felt as if the
truth and greatness of Islam was entering every fibre of my body.
Departure to Africa and employment there
On graduating from the Medical College, I went to East Africa.
There I was always in the company of the late Dr. Rahmat Ali who
was a very pious Ahmadi. I had the opportunity and time to study
Hazrat Mirza sahib’s books and my faith in his veracity went on
growing stronger. However, some influence of the ulama still
remained upon me and their declarations of unbelief against Hazrat
Mirza sahib prevented me from becoming an Ahmadi. On returning from
Africa, I was assigned to the Zafarwal District of Sialkot on plague
duty. I read much of the writings of Hazrat Mirza sahib both in
criticism of other religions and about his own claims. The books
A’ina Kamalat Islam and Ayyam-us-Sulh particularly
made a deep impression on me. Around this time, an Ahl-i-Hadith
maulvi became the imam of the mosque at a nearby village.
This resulted in an altercation between the Hanafis and the Ahl-i-Hadith.
The local Police Superintendent was a staunch Hanafi. He arrested
the maulvi along with all his followers and instituted a
case against them for bail. When I heard of this, the Ahl-i-Hadith
in me was aroused. I took up their cause and went as far as the
Deputy Commissioner of Sialkot, and got those poor fellows released.
They were very thankful to me and I started to meet them.
Ahl-i-Hadith maulvi gets annoyed
When this maulvi realized that I was being influenced by
Ahmadiyyat he gave me the book Saif-i-Chishtiyya’i by Pir
Mahr Ali Shah and another book which was probably entitled Shams-ul-Badaya.
I read these books, especially the arguments given in favour of
the contention that Jesus was still bodily alive in heaven. On comparison
with the arguments for the natural death of Jesus, the arguments
for Jesus being alive appeared to me to be worthless. I flatly told
the maulvi that the books that he had given me had only served
to increase my belief in the veracity of Hazrat Mirza sahib. The
maulvi was very annoyed with me, and that was the last I
saw of him.
My investigations regarding Hazrat Mirza sahib
I was transferred to Shakargarh on plague duty. At a nearby village
of the Pathans, an officer Munawwar Khan had been suspended for
not assisting in the efforts against the plague. As I got to know
him, he requested that I intercede for his reinstatement. He said:
“Previously whenever we were in difficulties we would
ask the Mirza of Qadian to pray for us, and then by the grace of
God our problem would be solved, but now he has claimed to be Jesus
Christ the son of God. Our ulama have proclaimed him an unbeliever
and therefore we have stopped going there.”
I asked whether he personally knew Mirza sahib. He replied:
“Yes, I know him from childhood. He is a very righteous,
godly and abstinent man whose prayers are answered by God. We have
experience of his prayers; they work like an arrow going straight
for its target. There is no doubt that he is a great saint. But
you know that it is the saints who stumble. It appears that at some
stage in the spiritual path Mirza sahib, like Mansur,7 slipped or went astray.”
I was particularly struck by what he said. I had the opportunity
to frequently go on official duty to various areas of Gurdaspur
District.8
I met Shaikh Nur Ahmad, a chief of Batala, and various other people
who were not Ahmadis and were acquainted with Mirza sahib since
childhood. Their replies to my inquiries regarding Mirza sahib convinced
me that he was a righteous and saintly person. I was already satisfied
with regards to his claims but I was still apprehensive about taking
the pledge (bai‘at), for opposition to Ahmadiyyat knew no
bounds.
Illness of Mumtaz Ahmad
My son Mumtaz Ahmad was at that time two years old. I was appointed
in Shakargarh, District Gurdaspur, on plague duty, while my family
was residing in Amritsar. Mumtaz Ahmad contracted typhoid fever
so dangerous that his temperature would not go below 105° Fahrenheit
day or night and sometimes rose even higher, and the signs and symptoms
of typhoid fever became fully apparent. The best doctors of Amritsar
were in agreement that the typhoid was so severe that, if the boy
survived, the fever would not reduce in less than three or four
weeks. I had taken one week’s leave from work. The child was unconscious
all the time, lying like a corpse, and there appeared no hope of
survival. On the 11th day of the illness my leave expired. The boy’s
pulse was erratic and there was no change in his fever or unconscious
condition. I was desperately worried and refused to return to duty.
The elders in my family advised me not to take such a foolish step,
as what was destined to happen would happen in any case, and I should
not risk my employment. By coincidence, in those days Hazrat Mirza
sahib’s book Barakat-ud-dua (The Blessings of Prayer) was
in our house and my wife had read it. She said to me:
You will have to pass through Gurdaspur on the way
back to Shakargarh. On the way is the town of Batala. From there
if you go to Qadian and ask Hazrat Mirza sahib to pray for the child
it is possible that God may answer. Mirza sahib in his book Barakat-ud-dua
has written with great emphasis:
O you who say that ‘if prayer is effective then
show it’, where are you? Run to me so that I show you that effect
as clear as the sun.
My first time in Qadian
On hearing these words from my wife, I immediately prepared to
depart. As I was unfamiliar with the environs of Qadian, I requested
an Ahmadi friend to accompany me. The train left Amritsar at 10
p.m. and we reached Batala at midnight. There we hired a horse cart
to take us to Qadian. The road was in an extremely poor state of
repair. After a rough and jerky ride we reached Qadian at two in
the morning. The night was terribly dark and nothing was visible.
There were no sign of lanterns in Qadian. It was the winter season,
so the doors of the houses were closed. There was no sign of any
human being. I thought about what Mirza sahib would be doing at
this time? Would he be sleeping comfortably or be offering the tahajjud
prayer (voluntary night prayer)? Anyway, I felt a desire to know
what he was doing at this time. My Ahmadi friend led the way and
I followed behind. In the darkness we could not make out anything,
when unknowingly, my friend pressed against a door of Hazrat Mirza
sahib’s house and it fell open with a jolt. Hazrat Mirza sahib was
offering the tahajjud prayer. He closed his prayers with
salam just at that time and after inquiring as to our purpose,
he directed us to go upstairs to the Mubarik mosque. On arriving
upstairs we found ourselves in a small mosque. There was a room
adjoining the mosque, named bait-ul-fikr (the contemplation
room). The entire mosque was filled with people offering the tahajjud
prayer with great humbleness and devotion. In the room we found
the late Khwaja Kamal-ud-din sleeping on a bed. He awoke on our
arrival and offered us the bed. Thinking of the inconvenience to
him, I refused, but he said that he was now going to offer the tahajjud
prayers. So I lay down, and Khwaja sahib performed his ablutions
and was soon engrossed in prayer. But I was terribly embarrassed
lying and resting as people were praying with such humbleness and
with overflowing tears that I was feeling ashamed of myself. But
I was very tired so I fell asleep. At 4 a.m. the call was given
for the morning prayers. Somebody woke me up and offered me water
for performing ablutions. I had just performed my ablutions and
offered the individual prayers (sunnah), when the late Maulvi
Abdul Karim arrived. I was delighted to see him as he used to be
imam of our Ahl-i-Hadith Mosque at Sialkot. He also met me with
great warmth, saying: “At last you have come; yes, God did bring
you”. After this I mentioned to him that my son was critically ill
and I was requesting prayers for him. He said:
“Follow the example of Abraham, and for you too
the call will come from heaven:
‘O fire, be coolness and peace for
Abraham’.
God will change this fire of yours into coolness and
peace.”
I was much reassured by his words.
Meeting Hazrat Mirza sahib
Just then Hazrat Mirza sahib came out. I felt as if an embodiment
of light was standing in front of me. Maulvi Abdul Karim took me
by the arm and introduced me to Hazrat Mirza sahib in these words:
“Sir, I present before you another righteous soul”. I pray
that God makes me truly worthy of these words and that I meet a
good end. Hazrat Mirza sahib shook my hands with great warmth. As
some people had spread the rumour that Mirza sahib suffered from
leprosy and that his hands were covered by rash, I looked at his
hands closely. In my own sinful hands, it appeared to me as if his
hands, bathed in light, were like silver. Maulvi Abdul Karim only
introduced me in the words mentioned above, and in my opinion there
are no better words to introduce somebody to the Messiah appointed
by God. I therefore myself related the details about me. We then
offered the congregational prayers. I was standing shoulder to shoulder
with Hazrat Mirza sahib and Maulvi Abdul Karim was leading the prayers.
Praying behind him was nothing new for me as I had prayed behind
him for long in Sialkot, but I had never before experienced the
grandeur with which he now recited the Quran at Qadian. His recitation
was now so perfectly eloquent, and it penetrated the heart so much
that as I listened to it my heart melted and yearned. It is my belief
this change was due to the blessing of the Messiah, for I had long
heard Maulvi Abdul Karim’s recitation of the Quran; it had neither
possessed such eloquence, nor this penetrating effect.
Result of the meeting
After the prayers Hazrat Mirza sahib went inside. Khalifa Rashid-ud-din
had already asked me whether I would like to meet Hazrat Mirza sahib
in the mosque or privately. I desired to meet him in private. Shortly
thereafter, Hazrat Mirza sahib invited us inside. We entered a room
in which some children were sleeping. Hazrat Mirza sahib was sitting
on a bare, rope-woven bed, not covered by any soft bedding. On seeing
me, he shifted towards the foot of the bed and invited me to sit
towards the (more comfortable) head of the bed. Out of respect,
I refused, but he took my hand and sat me down near the head. He
himself remained at the rough side and my friend sat between us.
I asked to know of some spiritual devotion for the purification
of the heart. He said:
“Just say the daily prayers with care and with understanding
of the meaning of the words.”
I was quite moved by his answer. For, I had tried various incantations
and recitals, but with no good result, except that my heart had
got spiritually weaker and I had lost the strength to face the world.
Furthermore, the way taught by the Holy Prophet Muhammad to his
companions, for the purification of the heart, was the offering
of these very daily prayers. So it was the method to be found in
the Sunna of the Holy Prophet, these daily prayers, that
the Promised Messiah taught for the purification of one’s heart.
From this I realized how firmly he followed the Sunna of
the Holy Prophet, and that he did not approve of any way that was
a later addition in Islam (bid‘ah). Hazrat Mirza sahib spoke
more on the purification of the heart. And what a speech! It felt
as if a spiritual doctor, diagnosing the real disease, was applying
the treatment. The answers to my weakness of faith and my doubts
and qualms were coming in such a manner that I sometimes felt as
if my heart was open in front of him and he was identifying the
maladies in it and treating them. When he said that a sinful person
is like a criminal whose arrest warrant has been issued, so at every
step he is afraid, and every moment he is anxious that he is about
to be captured, how then can a sinner have the tranquillity of heart
which is granted to those who turn to God — these words caused me
to tremble. I had heard plenty of sermons, but I don’t know what
it was about these simple words that they were so effective as to
penetrate my heart.
Taking the Pledge (bai‘at)
In the same connection, Hazrat Mirza sahib said that one should
be ready to depart for the next world just as a long waiting traveller
eagerly awaits a passage home. These words made such an impression
upon me that worldly matters began to seem quite unimportant. The
talk ended on the topic of the natural death of Jesus which was
characteristic of Hazrat Mirza sahib. Hazrat Mirza sahib had such
a great desire to wipe out the false doctrine that Jesus is alive
that most of his talks would eventually turn to this topic. I was
so engrossed in the talk that my boy’s illness had slipped my mind
and indeed I was totally unmindful of any worldly matter. In the
future too, I would feel the same — that is, after I had taken the
pledge of Hazrat Mirza sahib, whenever I went into his company I
would forget the world. I would feel too embarrassed to ask him
to pray about any matter of the world, even hesitating to request
his prayers in the case of illness of a near and dear one. I would
think that to ask such a great man for prayer for any mundane matter
is to devalue his status and worth. Anyhow, when Hazrat Mirza sahib
ended his talk saying, “whatever doubts or objections arise in your
mind, you can write to me or visit here in person to have them cleared
and get satisfaction”, the uncertainty of life loomed before me.
I realized that so much of my life had already passed searching
for the truth and I remained deprived of the blessing of Ahmadiyyat.
One cannot rely on life, and I might die in a state of spiritual
ignorance. I said: “Sir, accept my pledge of allegiance,
for how long will I go on stumbling like this”. He took my pledge
and prayed for me.
The effect of Hazrat Mirza sahib’s prayer
When I was about to take my leave, I mentioned my son’s illness
and requested Hazrat Mirza sahib to pray with special attention.
He immediately raised his hands and prayed for a long time. After
he had finished praying he gave me leave to depart. From there,
I went to Hazrat Maulana Nur-ud-din, with whom I had old relations
from my days of being a Wahhabi. He also spoke about prayer
briefly. From there I departed straight for Gurdaspur. At the railway
station I met my boss who was an English Doctor. I told him that
my child was very sick and I needed leave. He asked me for the present
to go to Shakargarh, but when he would return from Pathankot in
two days’ time I could get leave for even ten days. I immediately
went to Shakargarh. On the third day I received a letter that the
temperature had subsided and the child was completely well. As I
had already applied for leave, I went to Amritsar and learnt that,
on the morning I had got Hazrat Mirza sahib to pray, the condition
of the child was very critical. By nightfall everyone was despondent.
Twelve days had elapsed since the onset of the fever. But when the
temperature was taken late night it was found to be normal. The
elders of the family, on hearing of this, said that the thermometer
had not been placed properly. However, after taking the temperature
several times and finding it normal, the doctor treating the child
was informed. He was a highly capable doctor. He said:
“Have you gone out of your minds? This type of intense
typhoid fever never subsides in twelve days, and suddenly as well!
This is all an error of not placing the thermometer correctly.”
He came himself and took the temperature again and again, and felt
the pulse. He was astonished. He said:
“This is some special blessing of God. I can’t understand
it. I have never come across such a case — a child in such a bad
and weak state and then the sudden appearance of good health. This
is a Messianic miracle that a dead person has been brought to life.”
And indeed it was the grace of God and a miracle of a Messiah.
How truly does Hazrat Mirza sahib say (in a poetic verse about the
qualities of the exalted man who is chosen and sent by God):
“You can wrack your brains a thousand times and
still not solve your problem,
But when you come before him, just one prayer by
him is enough.”
The grace and favour of God
By the grace of God, despite intense opposition, gradually my entire
family and almost all my friends and close relations became Ahmadi.
And this is all the favour of God.
As for myself, whenever I would be sitting in the company of Hazrat
Mirza sahib, and my gaze would be fixed upon his radiant face, my
heart would become filled with thanks to Almighty Allah for His
grace and for my good fortune, that the man whom so many great saints
in Muslim history were yearning to meet but they passed away, a
sinner like me was graced with meeting him and taking his pledge!
This was indeed a great favour of God.
All praise to be Allah, the Lord of the worlds.
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